Day of Life 2023
Originally posted November 20, 2023.
Every year on this date, I write a post about mental illness to educate and to let people know they aren’t alone. I tell my story from when I first attempted suicide on this date in 2007 through today. I take it seriously. I am an advocate, and I know how much good my sharing does for others.
I can’t do it this year. Not to the degree I have in the past.
I am in a space where I am broken down. I left my job because of my poor mental health. I left high-level coaching, my passion, because of my poor mental health. I’m single, unemployed, and unable to do the things I love. I’m a wreck. I’m 36 and I feel like I am back at square one.
Most of these years, I write this annual post from a position of strength, during a healthy stretch. I go on about the politics of mental health, about the stigma both personally and societally. I encourage others. They are good posts, and I’m proud of the change and support they have provided to people through the years. Last year’s was a great one, and I encourage you to read it.
Because I don’t have the energy or ability to do this cause justice today, this year. It’s a good opportunity to peel back the curtain and show what it looks like when the wheels fall off, but I cannot advocate. I don’t have the bandwidth. I likely won’t respond to the wonderful messages I get, but know that I love y’all. I’m just worn all the way down.
People often ask how they can help. I’d love for you to do three things for me. First, please donate $16 or some other amount to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. Next, please read one of my older posts, linked below, to learn more about the stigma of mental health and how to break it. Lastly, if you or someone you know battles mental illness, work on creating a crisis plan. This can be as simple as having a loved one who understands the situation come and sit with you, or as full as knowing how to get to the hospital safely, what numbers to call (988 is the Suicide and Crisis Hotline), and the steps to reach safety. Having a plan has saved my life, and it could save yours.
I am safe, and I am loved. Thanks for the support.